Life's About Balance

Balance....Something we struggle with daily. If it's finding ideal balance with work, family and friends, hobbies or a significant other. I am guilty of trying to say 'yes' or keeping everyone happy at the expense of sacrificing 'me' time. I am not exactly sure if it's simply a female trait, where we keep trying to balance as many plates in the air as we possibly can; or if it's more of a me (type A personality) thing. Not only have I been continually saying 'yes' to anything and everything, I then feel guilty when I already have something scheduled (which by the way I live and die by my planner....the little 13 year old girl in me loves it). It is the constant struggle in my head of trying to keep everyone else happy and maintain friendship & relationships because I never want to lose one on the account that I am unable to attend. A little backassward....totally. Ex-boyfriends told me 'as you get older you will just narrow down to a handful of close friends'....friends told me 'you should just stop having so many friends.' Neither of these comments ever sat well with me. The friendship & relationships I have with people make me happy. I think I am at my best, most genuine happiness when I am around my friends. So cutting out friends was never an option.....I just needed to find balance.

In 2018 I found myself feeling super unhappy in my career, personal life, and friendships. I was filling up my life with things and events to fill the voids of other parts that were lacking. I felt drained at work and had no energy and felt unfulfilled. So I made a one of those totally cliché New Years Resolutions....to stop saying 'yes' all the time. I needed to allow myself to know that it was okay to say 'no' to a girls night or to a dinner or to a late night need of a friend or co-worker. It was so hard at first....hell it still is. My boyfriend tells me all the time to stop spreading myself so thin. I just keep taking on more and more. At some point you reach this point where you are just too exhausted and you can no longer give to those who you care about most.

2019 has proven to be the year of improvement & balance. A lot of this year I have spent trying to work on me! I have delved into self help books, I trained & successfully completed 1/2 marathons at times I never thought I would run in, I have been to therapy, and I have learned to say no to others with less guilt. This blog I have started is a way to write through the challenges, successes and hopefully be relatable to women everywhere. Let's find balance, happiness and success together!!!

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